We have now moved through March and into April. With my first personal reading under my belt, my apprehension was slowly starting to fade away…
Over the next month I did around 6 or so readings for myself, some more structured, with specific questions in mind, while the others were more for practice sake. And I kid you not, every single time, there was one lovely lady who persisted on popping up, that’s right, you guessed it, the beautiful mother of all mothers, The Empress.
Not only did she come up in every reading, but for the most part she was the first card that I drew. I guess I shouldn’t complain though, there are definitely worse stalkers out there 😝.
Now to give you some background, April was a really tough month for me. My relationship with my love was slowly disintegrating before my eyes, he was in a really dark place mentally, and me being the person I am was doing my upmost to be there for him, to learn what was causing the sadness, and to try and help him through it. So of course when The Empress came to me in my readings I read it as a strengthening of my inner belief that I needed to do what I could to continue to nurture my love, and show him how much I cared.
I spent the next few weeks doing everything I could to show him that I was there, ready and willing to do whatever I could to help, because I truly loved him, and it hurt me immensely to see him in pain.
And again each time I did a reading there was The Empress, standing there on her branch, sending out her butterflies to whisper in my ear, “he needs you, now more then ever”.
I don’t know if it was because I was clouded by my situation, of if it was because I didn’t have the knowledge to see more sides to the card, but looking back now I wonder whether I would have interpreted it differently.
Unfortunately, my love and I were not able to get past this dark time and our relationship ended on the 1st of May. Without waxing lyrical, this hit me harder then almost anything I was yet to experience in my 25 years on this Earth, and the next three months were an abyss of the deepest sadness and confusion.
It took me a long time to even think of touching my cards again. But then I had a day full of signs from the universe telling me I was ready, that now was the time to pick them up and reignite the fervour that begun on the night of the 25th.
So I grabbed my deck, calmed my mind, harmonised with my question and lay my spread…and who was back to say hello, you guessed it, The Empress.
When you think you’ve got rid of your stalker, and she pops back up, it is quite the interesting feeling. But this moment in time requires a post to itself.
So, until then…